Your Story is a series by WonderfulWomen where you will read inspiring Guest Posts from women around the world. Here they share their experiences, stories and things that matter most to all women.
Today’s guest post is by Ruth Anderson from ruthinrevolt.com. After being diagnosed with depression and anxiety, Ruth wanted to turn her situation into something positive so she created her blog, Ruth In Revolt. Ruth is sharing here her story, in hopes of helping others to do the same.
Turning the tide
A couple of months ago, I was in a bad place. I took a trip to the doctor, cried about how I felt and, predictably, came out with a prescription for anti-depressants and the details for some counselling services.
I began taking the medication. Thankfully, I avoided most of the side effects and within a few weeks, they had started to work. By this time, I had left a job I wasn’t enjoying and beginning to wonder what I was going to do. The panic of being unemployed without a plan had started to set in. I knew I didn’t want to return to retail, but I had no idea what the next step should be.
Try as I might, I couldn’t escape a memory which was playing on loop in my head. The memory in question is when I saw my English teacher, many years after leaving school, and she told me to write a book. She had expressed her fondness for my writing and assured me I had a natural talent which I should utilise.
After some deliberation, I decided a book seemed out of reach at that moment in time, but I thought a blog might settle the desire inside me to write. So, despite feeling terrified at the prospect of finally sharing my words with the world, I launched my blog.
I was nervous no one would read, or that they would, and they would hate it. There was, however, something inside me telling me to try anyway. As the saying goes, “nothing ventured, nothing gained.”
When I told people close to me what I was doing, the reaction was always along the lines of “what took you so long?” It seems everyone else could see a talent which I couldn’t see. I am notorious for being my own harshest critic, and this was no exception!
I pushed myself. I fought against the voices in my head telling me I shouldn’t do it. I put myself out there in ways I never would have imagined doing before.I worked hard on it every day. My hours were filled with promoting it on social media, constantly assessing it in search of improvements and planning new posts.
It sparked something in me which I hadn’t experienced before. It gave me a sense of purpose, drive and determination. Having possessed a lifelong love of writing, but missing the courage to pursue it, it was as though everything was falling into place.
The more I interacted with other bloggers, the more I discovered there was something else inside me: a need to make other people feel good. I’ve always been a caring person, but I found myself tirelessly cheering other people on. If I noticed someone was struggling, I’d reach out and see how I could help. I loved it.
While my blog started as an outlet for me, I feel it is slowly developing into a place where I am trying to help others as much as myself. More often than not, I write with the purpose of helping others, whether that’s by opening the discussion about mental health, or sharing my best blogging tips.
I’ve come a long way in a short time. I’m now filled with hope, enthusiasm and joy about my future. There are so many ideas in my head for the future of my blog, and I can’t wait to watch it grow. Who knows – maybe I will finally write that book eventually! What I do know is this wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t asked for help with my mental health.
My Message to All Wonderful Women
Depression and anxiety can mask a world of possibilities which are living inside you, so if you’re struggling, I’d encourage you to ask for help and see what you discover.
Connect with Ruth
Her Blog www.ruthinrevolt.com
Instagram www.instagram.com/ruthinrevolt
Blogging is such an amazing outlet. I love your blog and each of the guest post. They are truly inspiring women each and every one of them.
The part you said “The more I interacted with other bloggers, the more I discovered there was something else inside me: a need to make other people feel good.” Is exactly how I feel. I am always the one making everyone laugh and trying to make sure everyone else is great because it honestly makes me feel awesome. You’ve inspired many with your story. I always say it’s difdicult For people to come out and speak up for themselves on depression and anxiety. You’re a voice for many now! Stay strong and continue pushing through!
Exactly – you get so much back from helping other people. It’s a feeling unlike any other. Thank you so much for reading, and for leaving such a kind comment. x
It’s so amazing that you are doing so well! I too suffer with anxiety and I have been feeling so much better since I started treatment in January.
I’m sorry to hear you struggle with it, too, but it makes me really happy to know you’ve been feeling better since your treatment! x
Ruth, thank you for sharing your inspirational story. It is amazing how we can take a tough time and turn it around to help others. And it was nice to hear at the end that you are filled with hope and joy! (((HUGS)))
Aww, thank you very much for reading. I really appreciate it! x
This is such a beautifully written post, Ruth. Thank you so much for sharing your story. We’re backing you in your Revolt! Sending you good vibes!
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Thank you very much, Nati! 🙂 It’s wonderful to have your support. x
Thank you for sharing your story Ruth! It’s really inspirational – writing can be really cathartic and help heal us in so many ways so keep doing what you’re doing!
Thank you for reading!